After a few years break from writing I’ve decided it’s time to come back to it full force. So far the hardest part for me is getting started. How do I just jump right in after abandoning it all this time? What can I use to explain my absence? The truth, I guess, is my only option. I let fear take over. I was afraid that everything I wrote wouldn’t be good enough. I deluded myself into thinking that the only words that I write are the perfect words the very first time. If they didn’t flow and dance right from the start then I failed, which just gave that fear another boost. I became so centered on how my words would be received and judged that I couldn’t even put one word down.
Luckily I’ve had my husband and kids remind me repeatedly that the only way I could fail was to not even try. I decided it was time. So, no more excuses. No more going to write and getting lost in one of the many internet distractions I could find (especially Facebook). No more finding reasons I was just to busy to get to it right this second. Now I will just open up a file (or notebook) and start writing. I realize this may end up with a lot of works that will need editing, and I’m working with being ok with that. At least I’d be moving towards my dreams instead of sitting in a holding pattern like I have been.
What does this mean for you, my readers? It means more posts, of course. I figure the easiest way to get back to it is to make write more blog posts.Then I plan to work from there to create more pieces to submit and actually submit them. I’ll keep you all posted on how well I stick to this (though if I’m posting more on here then technically I’m following through, lol). If you feel I’m not keeping up my end, feel free to call me on it in the comments. If there is anything you want me to write about, a discussion you want to start, or just whatever pops in to your head please post in the comments below.
I look forward to your company on this journey with me. Make sure to leave some breadcrumbs to find your way home. I can guarantee we’ll wander off the trail more often than not. Just remember that it’s the journey, not the destination that makes it all worth while.